i am back from taiwan some days ago. i wouldnt say is very enjoyable because of the tour guide we had for the long 8 days trip. but of course, we did have some fun though. anyway, it was my second trip to taiwan so there wasnt much different from the previous one. just added some extra places like kaohisung and hua lian etc. lazy to talk about it as the moment i started the topic, it would be quite draggy. haha.
anyway, my main thing for blogging now is i am very happy for pamela! yeah yeah, today is the release of the O level results. so yeah, she met the target that she was expected to achieve. of course, she can get the latest PSP from my aunt for FREE. and not to forget, she also made her dream come true- NJC. haha.
hearing all the noises coming from below while my mum is talking through the phone, i knew it that she has gotten back her results. and yes, it's a good news. it's really heartening to know that. all the prayers that we all had gone through, had paid off for her. so mean the kong ming lantern we lighted up had started to work.
so one down. and is a good one.
next of course is my turn. yeah yeah, the pessimistic me going to start the whole thing again. lols.
i wont deny that... knowing that my sis did well, it makes me feel even more pressurized and tensed up. ya, my A results. sighs. been having dreams lately. and all of them seem to lead me to some kind of bad premonition.
it's only mid jan! and i am freaking out now.
you know, at least it seems to me that my sis was confident that she would do well. so i doesnt see her worrying too much throughout the holidays. as for me, i think i am just like my usual self by using methods to run away from reality. indulging in different kinds of entertainment to spend my time away since i couldnt start work for this period of time. just learn driving, hang around with my friends or just read my books. to get away from thinking too much.
and feb is drawing nearer, so mean i'll be getting the results back soon. when it's something related to studies, i tend to become very superstitious. things doesnt really seem to go in my way and it's like a kind of hint though, that i wont be doing well. and my prediction tends to be quite accurate these days... please let it be wrong! haha. is leading to nowhere.
please dont mind my crappy thoughts because i need a space to rant out. and here's the best place to do so. if you cant stand it, stop reading it (:
and yeah, after receiving some booklets from different universities. i sort of taking the initiatives to look through the websites to learn more about them. of course it makes me more depressed.
but what to do? everything is already decided and there's no more changes. that's what i am telling myself all the time, be it today, yesterday or everyday but one just cant stop helping to dwell on it.
so i am trying to think an alternative route but is tough. i have one friend who has decided to enter poly. in my opinion, she's really brave and courageous for willing to take this step. it's a whole 3 years course and she dont mind doing it. for me i dont think i want to. and my dad wont allow it too.
ah... confusion. haha. enough crap for now.