maybe i am the one who has problem.
people who dont want to read can just go...
okay, i am sorry.
but i am just feeling this way all these while...
so cant blame me if i am saying things that sound hurting.
i am just feeling upset with my parents these days...
maybe i am feeling stressed up or temperamental at the moment.
but i really just cant stand it anymore.
even my mum just pissed me off too.
i dont know, i just feel that both of them are selfish.
why they always think in their own positions and never tried to put themselves in my shoe and think about my feelings?
even i tried to talk to them.
they just being so conscious about their own world, own thinking.
is just so tiring and disappointing to continue talking to them.
sometimes, i really just feel like crying.
it just makes me feel so lonely at times.
because it seemed like nobody really cared about my feelings.
especially my parents, which make me even more upset.
i had already been tolerating for a very long time.
and yeah, to everyone who is reading this blog.
maybe already start to think that i should be the one who is problematic.
maybe you are right.
since i am so upset with so many ppl.
maybe i am the one who need to think over.
but i just cant think of any reason why i should think over?
it seemed like just because i am the eldest in the family.
does that make it a point that i have to be the one who always do everything?
sometimes, i also will be lazy and do not feel like doing anything. there will be times i will feel tired too.
does that mean that being the eldest, i am not allowed to?
is it really so?
i also need a shoulder to be lend on.
i am not as strong as what everyone always think.
and i also dont understand why i am so upset with my parents.
maybe their actions already make me feeling very disappointed with them.
and it seemed like they dont understand.
and i think even i tell ppl about it,
ppl might just think, i am just complaining all the way. so they just keep quiet, feel that i shouldnt be behaving this way.
feel that i am very unreasonable.
yeah, i am unreasonable to all of you.
and maybe...
because at this point of time.
i really need support from ppl, esp my parents.
but instead, what i get from them.
are just disappointment and unhappiness.
i already feel disappointed with my dad.
and i feel like... i already become numb to him.
am i going to treat my mum tt way too?
if so...
i really dont know what am i going to do for my life down the road.
because... i dont feel like i have any family anymore.
i am alone.
and that is what i am feeling now.
and yes, i will not seek comfort from people again.
because i dont see the point of doing it anymore.
it will just become a pain to them.
so i understand.
sorry to trouble everyone.
DONT COMMENT ABOUT IT. THIS IS WHAT I FEEL.
I HATE HIM.
I JUST HATE HIM.
I REALLY REALLY HAVE ENOUGH.
STOP SAYING THAT I AM NOT CONCERNED ABOUT HIM.
OR SAY I AM JUST BEING SELF CENTRED.
BECAUSE HE IS THE ONE!
YEAH YEAH.
I AM THE BAD GIRL.
I AM THE REBEL ONE.
I AM THE ONE IN THE WRONG.
I DONT CARE WHAT ALL OF YOU THINK.
BECAUSE YOU ALL JUST DONT UNDERSTAND.
I REALLY HAVE ENOUGH.
IF I REALLY CAN GET OUT OF THE HOUSE AND AWAY FROM HIM.
I WILL DO IT.
I WILL REALLY DO IT.
THIS IS MY LIMIT OF TOLERANCE.
I NEVER FEEL SO DISAPPOINTED, SAD AND ANGRY ABOUT SOMEONE.
SO ALL OF YOU JUST SHUT UP.
NOT HAPPY, CAN JUST LEAVE AND DONT LOOK AT THIS BLOG!
BECAUSE I WONT CARE ANYMORE!
stop acting as if you know everything! YOU ARE NOT.
i have enough of my dad's chauvinistic actions!
you cannot do it, mean u cannot do it.
why always act as if you always know everything??
last time because of his actions, he had spolit all the aircons in our house.
and now, the aircon is leaking again, and you know what he is pouring in?
BLEACH AND WATER. as if he is so clever like that. yeah, i believe the aircon will be spoilt again.
and have u ever hear people put tinner into aircon???
i think he wants all of us to die from tinner poisoning.
even my tuition teacher also find it ridiculous.
just because he wants to save money from calling aircon services.
just to save the few hundred bucks and then cause all the aircons to spoil.
by tt time, he's going to spend thousands over to replace all the aircons again.
PLEASE. you are not a master in all areas.
instead, i think he is a idiot in all areas.
okay, i know that i am bad to say my dad like that.
BUT I HAVE ENOUGH.
even his car also smelled of tinner.
makes me feel so giddy all the times.
i really dont want to sit his car to school.
i would rather wake up early, squeeze the bus with other ppl and go to school.
and even walked to school than taking his bloody car.
always think he is right all the times and dont bother to listen to us.
please, actually you are wrong all the times.
always says that we do not talk any sense.
you are just too opinionated.
i feel like just knocking you out of your head.
just because you are my dad, i cant do it.
if you are not, i really will just strangle you!!!!!!
get off your that pissed and f***ing attitude!