shopping!!!
YES!!!!!
YESSS!!!!
YESSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!
ok. it sounds abit extreme or exaggerating.
but i'm really happy that.
my exam is OVER!
yuppp.
ytd was my last paper.
hmm...
dont really want to think about it.
but to just enjoy my life now.
because i'm really tired after these weeks.
so i decided to pamper myself.
erm.
ok.
i think is abit over pampered.
because i realise that i have spent...
almost to 400 bucks??
100 plus for clothes.
156 bucks for shoes.
100 bucks on hair.
10 bucks on slippers.
20 plus on accessories.
20 bucks on bag.
and i think i may still continue spending -.-"
maybe because of the gst hike.
it's really drives me nuts.
had never spent so much in my life b4.
sighs.
should be going broke soon.
but anyway.
i enjoy my day out today with yan and ailing.
at town.
just bought uniform and some accessories.
and walk around. chatting away like we used to be.
really miss those times we had.
and glad tt we are able to do it again (:
took neoprints.
and it turns to be the worst we ever took -.-"
this should be the only one we are sad of haha.
oh ya.
u noe sth.
did any 4e1 receive an email from bio tan???
i am surprised to receive one from him!
seem like he is still fine and "humorous"
lols.
ok. really miss sec sch life...
Thursday, June 28, 2007
GOING NUTS!!
ahhhhh.
i'm going nuts soon.
stupid bio stupid bio!!!!
tml last paper and i will be free!!
cant wait for this bloody bio to get over soon!
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
pressure? sad? blame myself?
sighs.
it seems like i lost my motivation.
i mean really lost it...
after today chem paper.
i actually felt very sad and depressed.
and angry wif myself.
didnt mention it to anyone.
dont wan to trouble my friends.
believing tt it's not very nice.
but...
i really feel sad.
it's the same topics.
and i still cant do.
if can pass is already not gd enough.
just imagine if fail...
and different thoughts just came to my mind.
teachers. parents. and principal.
i dont know how to face them.
this is the first time...
i feel so disappointed.
i cant even concentrate on my econ.
because i think i really lose hope and motivation.
see no pt of studying when my mind is all abt chem.
i feel like talking to someone...
but i dont know who i can talk to.
what if i jus talk....
just find me a nuisance?
or being self centered...
sighs.
i think the following few subs...
i will flunk them.
because i am already at the bottom of the pit.
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
why am i feeling so...
heavy.
is the only word i can describe about my feeling right now.
ever since this holiday started.
i have never feel any better than before.
seem like being back to sch for lesson should be a better choice.
at least i wont be feeling so frustrated, angry and pressurized.
probs are just coming all the way to me.
maybe just tt i'm not gd at handling probs.
i just cant take pressure?
i will just break down when everything just pile on me.
maybe i have given myself too much pressure.
which makes matter looking more worse than it supposed not to be.
i think study should be the biggest factor...
honestly speaking.
i think tt...
i am feeling more and more inferior bt myself.
for not being the best.
for not achieving what i supposed i want to be.
i never had this kind of feeling before...
this kind of feeling is like...
never ever want something so badly.
so badly that it can drive me crazy.
i dont know what exactly i wan from myself.
and just wish tt my mind dont think so complicated.
everything supposed to be fall in pieces.
but somehow.
it just didnt happen.
i dont know why.
it seems like my life.
has become... incomplete?
it's just seem to lack of something.
which really makes me feel like crying.
i really hope i can figure it out!
because it's just making me so miserable.
it seems like my days are just getting more and more heavy.
esp this holiday.
can everything just get over soon...
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
DAMN FRUSTRATED (0_0)
ok. just back from home not long.
didnt actually expect to blog today.
but just that.
i am feeling damn WHATEVER.
just reached home.
and i already bombarded with laptop prob.
and got to start thinking of revision.
and whatever.
honestly speaking.
i dont know is it because i decided to retain.
that i feel pressurized to do well.
even for mid year.
i will start scolding myself over and over again.
for not studying for my mid year.
ok i start mugging.
but i just feel tt i didnt do enough.
and i dunno why.
i have to be troubled with the DAMN BLOODY laptop of mine and my sis.
just add on to my burden.
next.
my next week will be filled with sch stuff.
and THAT'S THE ONLY WEEK LEFT FOR MUGGING.
and what?!
i didnt mugg?
bio???
gone case.
and yea.
my sis.
gosh, she's really studying.
and me???
slacker??
only if someone's there to help me out.
get me away from those BLOODY PROBLEMS!!!!
so that i can just concentrate on my studies!
have to go down to the darn sim lim square again.
and tt's going to take my one whole day again.
WHAT THE HELL.
no time for resting.
no time for mugging.
no time for outing.
AH JUST whatever...
Friday, June 08, 2007
having one- good or bad?
i got a new laptop on 31 may, vesak day.
the day when the IT exhibition is held.
my dad actually purchased 2 laptops -.-"
one for me and another for my two sisters.
sighs.
at first i didnt really wan it.
because he had to spend more.
and i was afraid to share with my sis too.
since they already spoilt the previous one.
if i shared with them and one of them spoilt it...
i would definitely get the scolding from my dad.
anything wrong with the com.
i have to be always the one to settle it.
getting sick of it.
and tomorrow.
still have to go down to sim lim.
to settle certain matters on the laptop.
got to waste my time again!
think my mid yr revision.
can just forget it.
really scared...
tt i dont have the time to study.
really need to do well this time!
so god.
just help me.
Saturday, June 02, 2007