yes yes, workshadowing (:
okay, my workshadowing had officially ended yesterday.
of course, i am definitely sad but a tinge of happiness?
because i really enjoyed the whole SGH workshadowing but yeah, is quite tiring. from 9am to 5pm (sometimes abit longer).
hmm, there're too much things to say about this workshadowing so... i think i will just summarise what most of us exactly had done during this workshadowing.
basically, i did not really work for one whole 2 weeks but was spread out throughout the 2 weeks.
On 12 nov, we had gone for a orientation talk given by the speakers from different departments like diagnostic radiology, infection control, pharmacy, nursing etc... you name it! XD
hmm, there was nothing much on that particular day with just a brief introduction about what SGH can offer and how it actually works. but this whole orientation takes one whole day. so yeah, that was our first day!
and i realise that Pioneer JC was not the only JCs that was having SGH workshadowing. there were other JCS and yeah, i cannot deny that i did feel abit intimidated by them. because those students are from raffles jc, hwa chong jc, victoria jc, temasek jc. we're only the... you know what i mean -.-"
and all of workshadowing students were broken into 2 groups- first group was having their attachments from 13-16 nov while the other one was having from 20-23 nov(yes, i was in this group). so the first group was all the prestigious JC students while 2nd group were us plus some other students (of course these students are still from the prestigious ones...)
On 20 nov, my real attachment started! there were a total strength of 10 students. we were again broken into 2 groups- with 4 pioneer students including me and one Victoria guy as one group and the rest in another group.
each different day we were be assigned to different departments.
for this particular day, my group had gone to the RCCM lab where we visited the Sleep Disorders Unit and the Intensive Care Unit (ICU). hmm, there was nothing much we had learnt in this field but just given introduction of what they do and the explanation of the machine usage (ventilators etc). we get the chance to take a look of the ICU ward and gosh, there was really alot of medical equipments inside. anyway, i lazy to type so i ended this part (:
on 21 nov, again we were separated. this time my 2 other pioneer friends (Wan Ting, Tresa) went to the Dermatology and nuclear medicine departments while my other pioneer friend (Shameera), Victoria guy (Hari) and i went to Radiology. of course, we learnt about all the x rays, CT scan, MRI... okay, i am lazy to type lols. but i really learnt alot of things which people will never get to learn if they didnt have attachment because duh, it's not possible for them to let you go in and see =D
on 22 nov, i had gone to the Dermatology and nuclear medicine. yes, dermatology of course is to learn more about the treatment of skin and we went to the burn ward. hmm, most of the patients are almost recovered so... not really much to see. the nurse was really very warm loving. she really taught and explained to us alot of stuffs... so i really get to know alot about dermatology. yeaps.
and the next half of my day, we had gone to the nuclear medicine. there was nothing much to learn over there because it's just a small department which is somehow doing the same thing like radiology. they are just 2 different departments as nuclear medicine is more like... scanning to check if the functionality of the body organs are still working. yeaps, sort of?
on 23 nov, it was my last day of attachment =( really quite sad because i did enjoy my workshadowing and yes, i missed my friends. built quite a gd friendship with them. anyway, it was totally on nursing. we had gone to the diabetics center for the first half of the day. gosh, i really like the SGH nurses! they were really really very nice and friendly, willing to answer our questions without fail. Nurse Chan actually briefed us while walking towards the center and after that, she explained to us the whole theory about Diabetes. lols. yeaps, all the type 1 and 2 etc. next, she attached us to a doctor which gave consultation and to the podiatry. i went to the podiatry first and the 2 podiatrist were caucasian -.-" and there were 3 SAJC students over there. felt weird but hmm, they were friendly. after that i joined the doctor and observed how he gave a consultation to the patient. i could feel the passion and patience the doctor had towards his patients. i held in awe towards him! my salute to him! XD LOLS.
my next half of the day, we had gone to another nurse who was in charge of changing the feeding tube and to another department- anorexia ward. haha. okay, get to know alot of stuff again and yeaps, in general, i loved this last day of attachment the best! okay, i lazy to type further more haha...
generally, i enjoy this whole SGH workshadowing and want to thank SGH and my school for giving me this opportunity (okay, i know that they wont be able to see this). hope that i can have another kind of this attachment soon! (=
Saturday, November 24, 2007
selfish?
my heart's feeling quite heavy these days.
hmm, maybe because my holidays are just passing like a flash? and yea...
there's another matter too.
my doggy, jackie, will be given away tomorrow.
just think about it, cant help but feeling very sad and down.
anyway, i dont really feel like talking about it and then just make me wanting to cry.
is just that my dad is already sick of looking after it so decide to give to his friend. that's it.
and yeah, now I HAVE TO WORRY if he will be even giving away the mother dog (mandy).
i really hope he wont do that.
because... i will be really angry with him or even... dislike him?
i really dont understand him. since from the starting he know that he did not have the ability to stay firm to look after the dog all the way. he shouldnt have bought the dog 3-4 years ago.
when now, all of us have already developed a strong feeling for the dogs.
he's going to tear all of us apart from the dogs.
does he know... the feeling is just like being separated from a family member?
and yeah right, last time to tell us that looking after dogs is his hobby.
so is this how his hobby goes about? by looking after for a while and then give away?
i really dont know...
and i really cannot bear to see the scene tomorrow...
sighs, not continuing...
i am just feeling confused and...
aww, mixture of feelings! thinking about it, just make me headache.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
NICE OUTING (:
yes, i had GP remedial today and was told last min that actually i no need to go... but anyway, i think that it's alrite for the sake of my GP.
okay. let me talk about what i had done for today (:
had met mr JEREMY LIM CHUN HWEE (i'm doing tt too HAHA) for a 2pm lunch at holland village.
yeah, went around looking at all the restaurants, trying to look for one that caught our attention.
so we came up with a few choices- olio, marmalade pantry, foster?...
but in the end, we decided on olio. i think is more like a western cuisine? after looking through the menu again when we went in.
so yupp, both of us ordered spaghetti. i have one tt serve with salmon while jere has one serving with laksa flavour (i forget the name).
i find the food is quite nice and appetizing. aww, should have taken down the dish, cos the way they present it is nice (:
and yeah, we started our old times' chatting like we used to be. chatted lots of stuff ranging from one topic to another. we also went for some icecream at the rock to continue our chatting time. can u believe it, just a scoop of natural yogurt with almond can cost me 7 bucks (0_0) but i think is quite nice. haha. so... pay for its worth and anyway, once in a while wont hurt XD
i think if there's a longer time, we can catch up more. due to time constraints ( got to meet my sisters), so got to end it.
maybe we can have more meeting ups next time =D
and talking bout catching up... yea, like i mentioned before. there're lots of people more for me to meet up.
time for me to start planning! but at the moment, my schedule is real tight. aww...
especially when my workshadowing starts next mon....
so yea, i hopped up the bus to meet my sisters, accompanying them for their dinner.
they had it at breeks in takashimaya, thought tt it was really an enjoyable dinner with the order of a cajun blackened fish set meal for vivien, a seafood baked rice for pam, buffalo wings and a cookies and cream milkshake to be shared, and of course not forgetting, a hot and thick hazelnut chocolate for me! but... haha. the bill is not very nice. costed us about 60 bucks XD anyway the meal i had with jere already costed almost 30 bucks hahaha.
so after that, of course! i will never forget!! to ask them to take neoprints!!! lols. really, is damn fun and we took alot of funny pics. wanted to put them up, but abit lazy :P
i ADORE those neoprints alot. i never had a neoprints of the 3 of us before, can u believe it?! this is the first one! i will definitely TREASURE it, just like i treasure them (:
i LOVE my sisters!
haha. and yes, definitely need more outings with them too! create more photoshooting memories of course! heh heh.
anyway, we actually shopped around, looking for bags...
but it seemed like nothing caught our attention. so we took the bus around 9pm.
can continue the shopping on friday when pam needs to go down to collect her OBS stuff at city hall.
today was really a nice time.
hope tt everyday will be as joyful as today (:
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
hectic is the only word.
if i am not wrong, this should be the 2nd week of my holidays.
there's lots of incoming and outgoing happenings around me these 2 weeks.
like my studies, my 1 day work etc...
hmm, not exactly alot for now (maybe is the 1 day work- difficult to talk it here cos i am lazy to type out), but i am sure that i will be damn freaking busy from the 3rd week onwards. aww...
these past few days i have sort of doing some thinking, exactly what am i supposed to do for 2008, meeting my friends, my crammed holidays...
too much for me to think about, which actually irks me.
feel like typing out what exactly is running through my mind, but everything is just too confusing to say it out in words.
maybe i should try now.
here it goes...
7 nov- gp remedial (deserved it, for failing my gp!)
9 nov- my doom day (promo status criteria)
12 to 23 nov- workshadowing at singapore general hospital(sgh)
26 to 27 nov- SIF metro (CIP)
3 to 4 dec- astronomy club chalet
2... dec- 4e1 chalet???
NOVrevision: -first priority. biology (revision on all the topics, tys homework, doing some work revision)
-research given by sgh (maybe need to do presentation? okay, then it's going to really make me REAL busy)
-chemistry (same as bio)
-maths (do maths dec hols assignment, start some flipping through on next yr topics)
-gp? DEFINITELY have to do sth about it!
-econs? i am not sure ('',)
-catching up with my friends
DEC-start chem and maths tuition
-maybe summing up on all my revision
-spring cleaning of my room (i did that every yr, so DEFINITELY have to do it!)
-last catching up with my friends before going to my doom next year
okay, just looking at it.
i feel like i should be gasping for breath soon.
this is worse than running -.-" i would rather run for 100 miles and crying in pain.
i think workshadowing really takes up most of my time.
frankly, i am quite looking forward to it and at the same time, scared about it too.
i really dont know what exactly is going to happen over there and if it does really worth my time to spend over there.
i hope that i will not be disappointed.
anyway, since i have gone through all the troubles of interviews and signing up, i should learn to accept and enjoy the experience over there, right?
yupp, that's it! i HAVE to.
and yea, i REALLY need the motivation and determination to make myself study, otherwise i will really be dead next year. maybe not even next year, i may be dead by now XD
only if i can make my butt stuck to the chair and my mind stuck to the paper without drifting to the wonderland...
i think i will be damn glad if someone can help me with tt
your help will be fully appreciated =D
and sighs, i think study should be the greatest factor and the FIRST real priority for me now.
i cant afford to waste anymore time, eileen goh.
retain for a year, still failing my gp and biology. is really a CONDEMN for me.
and what's really makes me depressed is that, these ARE the 2 subjects which i want to improve.
and yeah i know. you no need to tell me---> this is for my dad.
i know IS NOT WORKING. okay, i get it! there's not a need to keep whining at my ears. u know, is really a sore.
and yeah i know, i told u on my birthday ( which YOU REALLY RUINED IT) that i can brush up during this holiday.
so okay i will do it.
but i really cant believe myself of getting my good grades by common test -.-"
i hope praying at the bugis temple really helps.
okay, i am pushing my responsiblity to the god.
NO!!!
but at least god, give me the strength in believing myself of doing it.
yeah, bless me.
Monday, November 05, 2007
What's exactly is life all about?
hmm.
you can say that i'm bored.
so decided to chat about something.
Life.
sometimes, i'm really wondering what we are living for.
are we born, just to be trained like a human machine, to contribute to society.
hoping us to be more inventive and knowledgeable enough to improve the world in some ways or other.
or is it really as what we believe in, gods? who we are blessed to be living in this world, to get to enjoy the love and care we have from our families.
for me, i will not deny that sometimes i am living a meaningless life.
okay, some people may not have the same thinking as me.
but that's how i feel sometimes.
my life, is just waking up early in the morning.
went to school for lessons. then went home for food, bathe, study and play.
so my life- food, bathe, study, play.
it seems like this is the whole cycle for my life.
otherwise during holidays, is just adding another category- work.
even tt happen for grown up of me.
isnt that everyone's life?
and yes, our lives now especially in developing countries, are becoming more stressful and intense.
with the advanced science technology and high standard of living, all of us have been working hard in terms of work or study.
it seems like sometimes i'm really wondering.
humans are judged by our academic ability for students, or capability for grown up adults.
so, as long as you are not able to meet the expectations of this fast paced and realistic society, off you go.
just like the quoting, "survivor of the fittest".
are all of us just worth a piece of paper?
just by looking at our academic qualification, are we able to be judged with what type of qualities we possessed?
or how far we can go?
i dont know.
i remember one of the teachers told us before.
we are not just a number as shown on our academic results.
we are humans.
so we should not be feeling disappointed or discouraged.
but sometimes i really doubted it.
i think that they just preach what they said.
i mean how is it possible that we are not judged as a number when whereever we go or do, most of the time we are using our academic qualifications?
even within your families, they are even using results to judge.
okay it may not apply to you but that's how i feel.
if we are not a number.
why are we still required qualifications to find a good job.
it doesnt seem like any tom and jerry is allowed to take up any job.
so ya, to differentiate the talents from the stupids.
i really feel that we are no different from a machine or robot.
is just that we are able to move around and act to do things accordingly under our own control.
that should be the only difference between us from them.
haha okay, i know it sounds very pessimistic -.-"
i dont know.
this is just a penny of my thoughts.
Friday, November 02, 2007