thank you sabby!
i met up with sabby today (yes, this is for you. touched??).
so we had our dinner at swensen. hmm, should be a early celebration for my bdae (right?)
it've been a long time ever since both of us meet each other.
so really had a nice and long chat over the dinner.
crapping about everything just like what the two of us always did in the past.
only if we had more time... lols.
but really, i missed those times that both of us had spent together.
is true that now pondering over it again, i can feel a tinge of sadness and longing... haha.
only if i dont have As now. we maybe able to go out more often.
nvm, we can do tt after my As even if you are working.
i going to pester you lols.
anyway, just wan to thank you again for coming into my life and i really treasure our friendship very much.
and again, thank for the birthday present, i really love it alot. u should know it by now (: haha.
and ya, thank for brightening my day.
miss you and love you too! arigato! =D
and hope that everyone around me will be happy always.
12 days countdown.
and yes, agent I 'heart' HY--- keep going and WE can make it! we must push on no matter how stressful and tired we are, because i am. keep on track. pls rmb tt you are not alone (:
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
nearing.
today.17 days countdown.
ya, to the start of my A levels. by right i am supposed to feel stress but i doesnt feel anything at all. it doesnt mean i am not scared. i AM really scared but i just dont know why i cant feel it.
maybe i am numb. tired of the constant worrying, the continuous fear and panicky feeling i experience during the exam period.
just imagine, when you have to continue slogging yr teenage life for 3 years in hard core study routine, and you feel as if there's no progress or improvement ar all.
stupid, yes, that's exactly the word.
next, you have to think, how a letdown it would be towards the people who have faith and belief in you when you didnt do well.
otherwise, it would be the pressure that has been building up within you, to live up to the expectation or to prove yr worth to others. and of course, the desperation to secure and devour every min and second that you possess in your hands right now.
haha, yes, that's it.
is you deserve it.
ya, most people will be thinking,
since you knew it right from the beginning, isnt it appropriate that you should already have put in your best effort and instead of feeling regretful and self-blaming right now at this crucial point?
so for this, i have no comment about it.
that's all i want to say.
Friday, October 17, 2008
gloomy days.
Saturday, October 04, 2008
too late to salvage? i deserve it.
32 days countdown.
yes, i'm only left with 32 days to my D-DAY.
another week to go, it'll be the farewell assembly then.
this means that my D-DAY is even nearer.
just by knowing that every single day, every hour, every min and every sec are clicking away.
i'm really very scared.
i dont know why, i'm particularly very upset today.
maybe because the arrival of october.
or just because i know that, tomorrow will be officially 1 month to my A level.
so it's really quite depressing.
study progress is slow, prelim results are disastrous, concentration level is low and not to say, pressure is just building up.
it seems everything is going real wrong.
do i have the ability, to be one of those alumni, who is able to do exceptionally well in A level even though they had done badly during their prelim?
do i have the determination, that i will not fluster during this crucial period, or even during the actual examination?
at times, i even feel that i am stupid.
i think i am.
whatever. i just feel damn frustrated.
that's all i want to say.
Thursday, October 02, 2008