many things happened these days.
and i didnt realise it until today.
it seems like my friends around me are not feeling really good.
maybe due to the hot weather, everyone is feeling quite hot tempered (hmm, i do feel that way)
or maybe due to certain situations that we're facing each single day, have made us feeling moody and depressing.
sighs, i cant help it but to feel sad too.
i am not feeling real good these days.
just fall sick today, maybe i had taken something wrong today.
so had been vomiting quite sometimes in the morning.
so ended up signing out from school.
yeah, so still feel abit nauseous and giddy until now.
sometimes i really think...
i am not a good friend afterall.
when my friends feel really sad, at times i really dont know exactly what i can say to cheer them up.
i am afraid that i will say the wrong thing, which makes them even sadder.
i am too stupid at times, when i dont know exactly what to say so i will just keep my mouth shut.
i am too pathetic and sympathetic with my own self, to even look at my friends when they may need some encouragement and console from people too.
maybe this year for me is A levels.
so my mind is whirling around with study and mugging.
which really make me tired out.
i have lost my momentum, my vigor and energy to continue the battle on.
yes, i have been saying lots of time to myself though.
i will meet up with my frens, stay in touch with them, talk to them more.
but it seems hard to do it at times.
everyday i am feeling so tired.
but as weird it is, i will wake up in the middle of the night at times.
thinking that i haven complete my work.
then fall back to slp.
it has been going on this way for days.
yeah, friends are really important to me.
without them, i really dont know how am i going to survive on even my family is around too.
there was a day when i talked to my friend.
most people are saying that when exam are around the corner...
people around you, including your own friends, will show their true colours.
in a way like in order to do much better than u, they dont mind using underhand means to be at the upper hand.
it really freaked me out though.
i really start to ponder about this matter.
will it really happen?
and is there a possiblity,
tt i am belonged to this kind of peopl?
i had said to myself that i wont be like that.
but really?
i really dont know.
but it is really hurtful if my friend will to treat me this way.
i think i wont be able to concentrate well then.
at times, i really hope tt i am gd enough.
to think of something nice i can say to my frens.
or at least to make them feel better.
but only if i can think of something.