today.17 days countdown.
ya, to the start of my A levels. by right i am supposed to feel stress but i doesnt feel anything at all. it doesnt mean i am not scared. i AM really scared but i just dont know why i cant feel it.
maybe i am numb. tired of the constant worrying, the continuous fear and panicky feeling i experience during the exam period.
just imagine, when you have to continue slogging yr teenage life for 3 years in hard core study routine, and you feel as if there's no progress or improvement ar all.
stupid, yes, that's exactly the word.
next, you have to think, how a letdown it would be towards the people who have faith and belief in you when you didnt do well.
otherwise, it would be the pressure that has been building up within you, to live up to the expectation or to prove yr worth to others. and of course, the desperation to secure and devour every min and second that you possess in your hands right now.
haha, yes, that's it.
is you deserve it.

ya, most people will be thinking,
since you knew it right from the beginning, isnt it appropriate that you should already have put in your best effort and instead of feeling regretful and self-blaming right now at this crucial point?

so for this, i have no comment about it.
that's all i want to say.