hmm.
you can say that i'm bored.
so decided to chat about something.

Life.
sometimes, i'm really wondering what we are living for.
are we born, just to be trained like a human machine, to contribute to society.
hoping us to be more inventive and knowledgeable enough to improve the world in some ways or other.
or is it really as what we believe in, gods? who we are blessed to be living in this world, to get to enjoy the love and care we have from our families.

for me, i will not deny that sometimes i am living a meaningless life.
okay, some people may not have the same thinking as me.
but that's how i feel sometimes.

my life, is just waking up early in the morning.
went to school for lessons. then went home for food, bathe, study and play.
so my life- food, bathe, study, play.
it seems like this is the whole cycle for my life.
otherwise during holidays, is just adding another category- work.
even tt happen for grown up of me.

isnt that everyone's life?
and yes, our lives now especially in developing countries, are becoming more stressful and intense.
with the advanced science technology and high standard of living, all of us have been working hard in terms of work or study.
it seems like sometimes i'm really wondering.
humans are judged by our academic ability for students, or capability for grown up adults.

so, as long as you are not able to meet the expectations of this fast paced and realistic society, off you go.
just like the quoting, "survivor of the fittest".

are all of us just worth a piece of paper?
just by looking at our academic qualification, are we able to be judged with what type of qualities we possessed?
or how far we can go?

i dont know.
i remember one of the teachers told us before.
we are not just a number as shown on our academic results.
we are humans.
so we should not be feeling disappointed or discouraged.
but sometimes i really doubted it.

i think that they just preach what they said.
i mean how is it possible that we are not judged as a number when whereever we go or do, most of the time we are using our academic qualifications?

even within your families, they are even using results to judge.
okay it may not apply to you but that's how i feel.
if we are not a number.
why are we still required qualifications to find a good job.
it doesnt seem like any tom and jerry is allowed to take up any job.

so ya, to differentiate the talents from the stupids.
i really feel that we are no different from a machine or robot.
is just that we are able to move around and act to do things accordingly under our own control.
that should be the only difference between us from them.

haha okay, i know it sounds very pessimistic -.-"
i dont know.
this is just a penny of my thoughts.