my heart's feeling quite heavy these days.
hmm, maybe because my holidays are just passing like a flash? and yea...
there's another matter too.

my doggy, jackie, will be given away tomorrow.
just think about it, cant help but feeling very sad and down.
anyway, i dont really feel like talking about it and then just make me wanting to cry.

is just that my dad is already sick of looking after it so decide to give to his friend. that's it.
and yeah, now I HAVE TO WORRY if he will be even giving away the mother dog (mandy).
i really hope he wont do that.
because... i will be really angry with him or even... dislike him?

i really dont understand him. since from the starting he know that he did not have the ability to stay firm to look after the dog all the way. he shouldnt have bought the dog 3-4 years ago.
when now, all of us have already developed a strong feeling for the dogs.
he's going to tear all of us apart from the dogs.
does he know... the feeling is just like being separated from a family member?

and yeah right, last time to tell us that looking after dogs is his hobby.
so is this how his hobby goes about? by looking after for a while and then give away?
i really dont know...
and i really cannot bear to see the scene tomorrow...

sighs, not continuing...
i am just feeling confused and...
aww, mixture of feelings! thinking about it, just make me headache.