if i am not wrong, this should be the 2nd week of my holidays.
there's lots of incoming and outgoing happenings around me these 2 weeks.
like my studies, my 1 day work etc...
hmm, not exactly alot for now (maybe is the 1 day work- difficult to talk it here cos i am lazy to type out), but i am sure that i will be damn freaking busy from the 3rd week onwards. aww...

these past few days i have sort of doing some thinking, exactly what am i supposed to do for 2008, meeting my friends, my crammed holidays...
too much for me to think about, which actually irks me.

feel like typing out what exactly is running through my mind, but everything is just too confusing to say it out in words.
maybe i should try now.

here it goes...
7 nov- gp remedial (deserved it, for failing my gp!)
9 nov- my doom day (promo status criteria)
12 to 23 nov- workshadowing at singapore general hospital(sgh)
26 to 27 nov- SIF metro (CIP)
3 to 4 dec- astronomy club chalet
2... dec- 4e1 chalet???

NOV
revision: -first priority. biology (revision on all the topics, tys homework, doing some work revision)
-research given by sgh (maybe need to do presentation? okay, then it's going to really make me REAL busy)
-chemistry (same as bio)
-maths (do maths dec hols assignment, start some flipping through on next yr topics)
-gp? DEFINITELY have to do sth about it!
-econs? i am not sure ('',)
-catching up with my friends

DEC
-start chem and maths tuition
-maybe summing up on all my revision
-spring cleaning of my room (i did that every yr, so DEFINITELY have to do it!)
-last catching up with my friends before going to my doom next year

okay, just looking at it.
i feel like i should be gasping for breath soon.
this is worse than running -.-" i would rather run for 100 miles and crying in pain.

i think workshadowing really takes up most of my time.
frankly, i am quite looking forward to it and at the same time, scared about it too.
i really dont know what exactly is going to happen over there and if it does really worth my time to spend over there.
i hope that i will not be disappointed.
anyway, since i have gone through all the troubles of interviews and signing up, i should learn to accept and enjoy the experience over there, right?
yupp, that's it! i HAVE to.

and yea, i REALLY need the motivation and determination to make myself study, otherwise i will really be dead next year. maybe not even next year, i may be dead by now XD
only if i can make my butt stuck to the chair and my mind stuck to the paper without drifting to the wonderland...

i think i will be damn glad if someone can help me with tt
your help will be fully appreciated =D

and sighs, i think study should be the greatest factor and the FIRST real priority for me now.
i cant afford to waste anymore time, eileen goh.

retain for a year, still failing my gp and biology. is really a CONDEMN for me.
and what's really makes me depressed is that, these ARE the 2 subjects which i want to improve.
and yeah i know. you no need to tell me---> this is for my dad.
i know IS NOT WORKING. okay, i get it! there's not a need to keep whining at my ears. u know, is really a sore.

and yeah i know, i told u on my birthday ( which YOU REALLY RUINED IT) that i can brush up during this holiday.
so okay i will do it.
but i really cant believe myself of getting my good grades by common test -.-"

i hope praying at the bugis temple really helps.
okay, i am pushing my responsiblity to the god.
NO!!!
but at least god, give me the strength in believing myself of doing it.

yeah, bless me.