emptiness.
just feeling sad.
and emptiness....
just hope holidays will be coming at a faster rate.
i need to recover from mental strain.
HATE MYSELF. HATE MY LIFE. I JUST HATE EVERYTHING!
EVERYTHING JUST IRKS ME.
I HATE MYSELF!
FOR BEING SO STUPID.
CANT EXCEL IN STUDIES.
AND DO SO BADLY IN SCHOOL.
ENDED UP RETAINING.
AND NOW BLOODY HELL.
HAVE TO THINK ABOUT MY RESULTS.
WORRY ABOUT PROMOTION.
FOR NOT ABLE TO MEET MY DAD'S F**** EXPECTATION.
FOR BEING SO UNHEALTHY.
GETTING SICK AND SPEND MONEY ON DOCTOR.
THANKS TO MY F*** STOMACH.
EVERY NOW AND THEN FEELING PAIN ALL THE WHILE.
MAKING MYSELF SO MISERABLE!
FOR HAVING SUCH A SELFISH DAD.
ALWAYS HAVE TO SMELL MY F***-ING DAD'S CIGARETTE SMOKE.
AND I AM WAITING FOR ANOTHER ILLNESS TO DEVELOP.
A RESPIRATORY PROBLEM.
I WILL DIE MUCH EARLIER THAN ANYONE!
I DONT WANT FALL ILL ANYMORE!!
I HAVE ENOUGH OF ALL THESE ILLNESSES!
I DONT WANT TO CRY EVERY NOW AND THEN.
I HAVE ENOUGH WORRIES!
HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT MYSELF.
MY RESULT.
MY A LEVEL!
I DONT WANT TO LIVE IN THIS KIND OF LIFE!!!!!!
JUST LET ME DIE!
I MIGHT AS WELL KILL MYSELF!
I REALLY HATE MYSELF FOR LIVING THIS WAY!
I REALLY DONT WANT ANYMORE!!!
I AM REALLY GOING NUTS!!!!!!!!!
AND I REALLY FEEL LIKE DYING!!!!!!!!!
JUST KILL ME!!!!!!!
I HAVE ENOUGH!
LIFE JUST DONT SEEM TO BE MEANINGFUL AT ALL!
I DONT WNAT TO GO THROUGH ALL THESE TORMENT ANYMORE.
please....
AND JUST DONT BOTHER ME!
I AM JUST A USELESS HOPELESS PERSON WHO IS JUST WAITING TO DIE!
okay! yeah.
i got the pictures.
sorry to update so late yupp.
so i went to hongkong on 3 oct.
we took an afternoon flight.
singapore airline!
is damn cool.
movies, games and nice food...
when we reached hk.is already nite.so we checked in and put down our stuff.
started our first stroll in hk!
hmm.
we were quite lost.
because was too overwhelming.
the street there.
is very complicated and lotsa of people.
shops and billboards everywhere.
lotsa of criss-crossed traffic light.
and the first day.
we already started our shopping! lols.
bought necklace which were damn cheap over there.
there are many shops selling teenager clothes.
so my sis and i got to buy some clothes. heh heh.
and we ate our dinner abt 11pm. (it seems to be supper -.-")
then we continue our shopping till like 12 plus then went back to the hotel around 2am.
haha. these are our routine everyday in hk.
so when i came back from spore, have difficulty in adjusting back.
because we woke up around 10am and slpt around 3-4am.
hk shops do not open very early.
i will try to summarise everything.
okay.
during this whole trip.
we walked REALLY alot.
and average of about 10 hrs everyday.
from about 11am to 12am.
and is non stop.
we have eaten alot too!
I LOVE THEIR DIM SUM!
is much more better than spore.
and talking bt it.
i miss it already :(
and their portion.
gosh. was really big.
so most of the time.
we only ordered 3, shared by 4 of us.
could not even finished sometimes. can u believe it?!
their food were not bad.
i like their dessert.
and yea.
we went to the peak.
taking the tram.
i had a damn BAD experience when taking the tram.
dont want to elaborate further.
but at the peak.
the scenery was really nice.
we got to see the whole land of hk.
took lotsa of pictures over there.
and the ticket was not cheap.
about 50 bucks in sing?
yea.
most of the time.
we were just shopping and eating.
but actually.
5 days in hk were really not enough.
there were so many places to shop.
and lols.
i cant believe tt we actually walked from sham sha shui to mong kok.
were about 4 stations away!
haha.
leg were really sore those times.
but i think i am already trained to walk very long journey.
haha.
really missed hk and dont really feel like coming back.
during the trip.
i totally didnt think bt my school stuff.
but the day b4 we came back to spore.
suddenly thought bt it.
which made my sis and i quite emo-ed.
sighs.
but anyway.
the whole trip was quite enjoyable.
hope tt this time i am able to go taiwan soon!
i am leaving my house soon.
to airport!
yupp.
i am going hong kong today.
will be back on sun.
hope tt it will be an enjoyable trip.
will be lotsa of things to update by then.
so yupp.
will tell you all bt my trip then!
ciao!
