mugging since morning.
that is what i have been doing these days.
from as early as 5.30 am or 6am in the morning.
hmm. maybe certain days didnt really mug all the way.
of course have break in between.

but for today. gosh.
from morning till now.
so i am having my break now.

okay.
maybe i have to blamed myself.
for not studying harder enough.
or starting much more earlier.
so now i trying to cram everything.

maybe practice too much on maths and chem.
so i totally neglected my other subs.
and i think i will flunk my GP.
which is really depressing.

and of course.
i didnt touch my bio.
what the hell.
sighs.

and ya...
i am scared.
I MEAN REALLY SCARED.

cause i cant retain anymore and i CANT afford to retain again.
and it seems like my dad is really discouraging...
at this pt of time...
which makes me feel more dull and depressed.

but really thanks, my friend.
for pulling me up again. ( you know who (: )
did make me feel better.
though now i still feeling down...

i really hope tt i can get over this promo and soon as possible.
and please.
i dont want to fail my promos.
and i wan to get GOOD RESULTS.
i CANT scrape through anymore!

cause i dont think it is excusable for me to get poor results.
which makes me feel more pressurized.
than any time in my life...

so ya...
bless me.