sighs.
ok.
NO MORE enjoyment.
NO MORE slacking.
NO MORE procrastinating.
NO MORE sleeping.

now, it's the time to wake up.
i left just FIVE MONTHS.
to rush off all my topics.

i really dont know if i can make it.
from my common test results.
i dont think i am ready for my A level.

i cant help but to think if retaining will be a better choice for me.
maybe i can perform better.
maybe i can have more time to study.
maybe i can get the grades i want for my A level.
and maybe i can get into medicine.
yeah right.
MAYBE.

i cant predict the future.
just like now i cant promise myself that i am able to mug all my subjects.

i cant blame anyone but myself.
for not putting my best effort to study.
for spending my time away for nothing.

now i have to face the dire consequences.
i think i am now real lost.
i feel as if i am just hanging in the air.
and will fall off at anytime.

i lose my sense of direction.
i really dont know what i want now.
to carry on with my A level.
or just study for another year.

i really dont know.
and i hope i can find the answer...
SOON.

because.
the registration will be next wed.